My Darkness Day By Me

What Meaning i have a life in
a would with mistakes
where i'am lost what sense
be a human.

how can i escape of a trought
of a dead a though full of pain
and frustration remaind that
make me remember pictures
unsoportables

one fall i´ts what i need,
a cut in the throat its enough,
my only wish without of any feeling
Like i never feel.

cornered in a wall where a lack of love consumes me,
hatred and disappointment builds looking at the sky dark,
gray cloud free, that's part of the world?
gray? Dark as my heart?

This is Confuzed because my parents explained it to me otherwise,
I lied, like all the blue sky does not exist,
everything is dark and the pain that has my heart.